My Book

In 2018, I lost my partner Clayton to a terminal illness, just 10 months after my father passed away. The whirlwind of grief in those first two years was followed by a global pandemic, and I found myself trapped in my widowed world, alone. I could feel the weight of loneliness and depression sinking deeper, watching others share their pandemic grief, echoing the same feelings I had experienced at the start of my own journey. I realized then that I had a choice—to give in to the darkness or to tap into the gift we all carry within us: the power to generate our own joy.

I soon discovered that this gift could be my light, my way out. So, I started dancing on social media. Alongside my movements, I shared my widowed blog, offering glimpses of hope, showing others that despite the depths of loss, there was still light to be found and smiles to come. What began as personal expression soon grew into a community of souls connected by our shared grief. In that connection, we found support, and through that support, gratitude began to flow—fueling a cycle of positivity that continued to grow and guide others toward healing and hope.

This book is a collection of the raw and unfiltered social media posts, blog entries, insights, and reflections I’ve written since Clayton’s passing until we were able to finally hold his funeral four years later. The writings remain as they were, without grammatical edits or restructuring, because grief expresses itself as it feels. To alter that would be to soften the truth and dilute the raw honesty of the emotions and experiences I lived through.

For those who need these words today, here is the dancing man's widowed blog…